Today.
I was able to sit outside and enjoy the day without guilt.
I was able to catch up with friends and good customers.
I was able to pass on good pricing to all those that are loyal to me through out the year.
I was able to water and weed my garden in between customers.
I was able to boil eggs and potatoes for potato salad in between customers.
I was able to take phone orders and package mail orders in between customers.
I was able to listen to music and sing along.
I was able to stay home without jumping in my car every few hours.
Why?
Because I had a sale at my home.
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One of my favorite movies of all time is Terms of Endearment. It came out in 1984 when I was a new mother. Although I didn't have a bum of a husband Like Emma's Hap or a meddlesome mother like Emma's Mom, Aurora. I really identified with Emma. I felt her pain. And for many years when I would catch parts of the movie on TV I would always cry at the same parts.
Many parts.
Emma was played by Debra Winger. We were about the same age when the movie came out.
Fast forward to present day. I hadn't watched Terms of Endearment in about ten years. Recently, on a rainy day, I settled in to watch it with my kids. I told them how much I had loved the movie and that they could count on me sobbing through-out.
But somehow, everything had changed! I was identifying with Emma's mother Aurora played by Shirley MacLaine! When as a longtime widow she began dating her next door neighbor I felt how awkward it was. When she wanted to control/help her daughter, I understood! When she found out her daughter was sick...
That was when the sobbing began.
And?
I realized I wasn't crying at the parts I used to, when Emma's husband cheated on her, when she had to move again, even when she had to tell her children she had cancer!
Instead?
I was crying when Aurora was devastated about her daughter's health, when she forgave Hap for treating her daughter like crap, when she was helpless in helping her daughter escape pain and ultimately death.
It's funny, I always thought Shirley MacLaine was so much older when this movie came out. I come to find out that she was only 48 years-old!
I have really been contemplating why this movie has changed so much for me.
Is it because now I closer in age to the Aurora than I am to Emma?
Is it because my experience and that of my peers is now more reflected by Aurora than Emma?
I say yes to both.
And now I wonder, will this be happening a lot?
Will certain books and movies take on a whole other meaning as we get older?
For the record? The scene shown below illustrates my point. I CANNOT watch it without sobbing.
Every. Time.
And that is something new for me.
